The Clouds Have Cleared

No, this is not a belated statement that the rains have ended. Although, I won't ever take sunshine for granted again.

No, my personal clouds have parted -- two weeks of bad mood, whiny-ness, and depression/anxiety have cleared.

Why?

The god-forsaken newsletter is finally in the mail. Sure, it' almost a month late. Sure, the "save the date" corner is obsolete (the event happened almost three weeks ago). Do I care? Not really. I just want it out. And it seems it has finally happened.

Why the delays? Critics, for one thing. Even a small nonprofit newsletter has "the man" to contend with. And then there were delays at the printer and delays with postage. The postage thing was all my fault. Just another example of how I can never complete any project correctly. I don't even want to explain the whole thing. It ends with me at the post office (in a small, hot office at the end of a long, ill-lit corridor) handing over a check for $800 (newsletters, even in bulk, cost money to mail).

The icing on the cake was the arrival of the order of note cards and mailing labels. I ordered 500 note cards and neglected to specify that we would need envelopes to go with them. And, I mis-ordered the labels, so instead of 2000 (two thousand) I merely ordered 200 (two hundred).

Oops.

But I don't care. Weight has been lifted.

I'm on the third version of the "spring appeal" (never mind it's almost summer). I am awaiting approval from "the man" -- an agonizing time span while I chaff under deadlines, and "the man" neglects to acknowledge those same deadlines (which He set). Great.

I hope I don't sound bitter, because I'm not. I'm beyond caring, and I feel so weightless and overjoyed at the upcoming weekend.

I'm happy. I can say that truly and without fudging the truth (the answer I give when I'm really not happy is fine. "I'm fine" I say, lying through my teeth, resisting the urge to scream, cry, or strangle who ever is near-by.

The reason I really wanted to write, though, is because I just learned that scientists have discovered a new genus (not just species, but genus) of monkey!