Gaining a Firm Footing

I think I was a bit panic-stricken in my last post. I feel better and better every day. Today I went to a Development Committee Meeting (really, the development committee is also in a stage of development... how do I always get sucked into organizations in flux?) and I feel like I have a much better understanding of the direction we're going--and I feel part of it! I'm very impressed by everyone on the committee. SF came and helped me with Paradigm, uncovering some of its mysteries--I can now merge files! WAHOO!!! I could always do it if I signed in as SF, but my ego demands that I do my work signed in as me. And now I can. Bliss.

I started reading Cold Mountain on the train. However, I've been a little sleepy so far this week, and I don't get very far before I decide to take a cold-nap-on-the-train instead. But don't get me wrong, it is interesting.

I'm reconsidering the beautiful apartment with the small bedroom. I'm trying to arrange to meet with the (hopefully) future roommates, but S. is leaving for two weeks in Chili, so it might have to wait.

But yes, the good news is that I'm really starting to settle in and feel a lot more comfortable. I don't know why I'm always afraid that someone will come up and start chastizing me for being the worst development associate ever. I know it's not true, and yet... But, yeah, it's getting better.